CARIBBEAN CONFESSIONS

How My Ex Changed After the Staff Party | Caribbean Confessions Part 2

I had to take my time to type this one out… But here it goes! that SSU Officer drama hit my life harder than I ever expected. That SSU Officer drama and Work wife mash up everything. When I think back, we was happy, real happy. We had that vibe where everything was just nice,always laughing, going out, supporting each other. She looked like she was living her best life, and with me she glowed different. But boy, that coworker vibe? That staff party night? It mash up everything.

You know Lucians already…. After she left, people keep stopping me all the time: “Garçonnn, how come we not seeing you and her again? You’ll two was a nice couple, we like y’all together.” And every time I hear that, it feel like salt in the wound, because I couldn’t even give them a straight answer. “Garcon, to me I see a SSU fella with your ting”.. Boy that used to mash me up!

Then slowly, people start telling me, “Boy, she change, eh. That not the same girl again.” And truth be told, they wasn’t lying.

For weeks after that staff party, I was a wreck. I couldn’t eat properly, couldn’t sleep properly. Every night I was in gros pwel mode. I’d just grab a bottle of Bounty or Movado spice(iykyk) and drink my sorrows away, but rum doesn’t help. It only numbs you for a few hours, and then reality hits again. Up to today, I still don’t know if she met the SSU officer that same night or if he was already in the picture before. That part eats at me.

When she was with me, we was a free spirit. Always looking fresh, dressing up in short skirts, dresses, lashes, nails done, makeup on point. That girl could be going Massy and she looking better dressed than some people that going jazz. Fellas used to stop and stare, and I used to feel good, because is my woman that was deh. We even had a vibe where we use to wear our football jerseys together, both of us are Man U fans, and people use to think that was cute.

But from the time she linked with that SSU officer, alot of people had check a old vibe. She started dressing different, moving tie-up, like she was under rules. Longer clothes, no vibe, no glow. It was like she was locked in prison. Is like she started aging fast and lost her youthfulness. And is not me that saying that, is the streets.

Imagine, one day I roll by Falco in Dennery, and I end up meeting one of the girls in her circle. That girl is one of her closest friends, she reached out to me. She told me straight, “Boy, if I tell you, that girl in one drama! The SSU mun have a woman foreign all the time, and that girl deh like a gor-gor. She didn’t even know about the woman in America when she move in with him. It’s his own mother that buss the files on her. His family doh like your ex, and they prefer the American woman, who already tie to him for papers. That woman does send barrels and goods for the family regular. So they make sure your ex know where she stand.”

She lean back, shaking her head, but you could see she enjoying the roro too. “Your ex looking stressed, boy. She losing weight, she dressing like she is a church girl, and she not smiling again. She keep saying, ‘When I was with him, I never get treat bad like that.’ But she trap now. Depressed, quiet, and the family make her feel like a shate.”

One time in my head, I say “IYMC”, not greener pastures you go and look for? Some women have to overs, a man can have sex with another woman and not love her. I had love that girl. Things I do with and for her, I never do for no other woman. I show her friend I self not innocent, I had sleep with my co-worker, but I wasnt looking for residency deh, it was a fling I had to get out my system.

Her friend told me I was wrong, I tell I know, then she continued giving me more soaps. She said that now that ex knows everything, and it’s breaking her down. She wants to leave, but fear has her trapped. Her friend said she’s hurting bad, scared, but deep down she wants to reach out to me. I feel a way eh, like my eyes get watery, but as mun… I hold it in cause mentally I done dismiss that girl, cause ask any man, when a woman leave you… the first set of days to weeks, you thinking about how dem mun have your girl in positions, if dem mun tool bigger than yours. Traumatizing!! I EH GOING THROUGH THHAT AGAIN!!!. Her friend kept asking me to talk to her, she call the girl in my presence. She pass the phone to me, and I was trembling I eh go lie. She ask me how I doing, she talk to me how nice, I self shock. She ask if I miss her, I said I think so, she laugh. I ask her the same question, she say.. “but you know. Damian I love you”. I melt e.

But let me set this straight!!!! not over my dead body. I’m not taking back no woman after mate done with her. That falls in the zwag category for me. My mindset now is bigger! I want to find a good woman, build a life, and settle down proper. At the end of the day, is man better man, they collect on me. I have nuff officer friends, so respect to all the hard working fellas on the force.. is just that one in particular I digging on. And I eh go lie, shout out to my bus driver partner Kim, mate give me a strength, he advise to eh have nothing telling the Ssu, let karma handle it. and that was the best advise I got in all, and it manifest. SHE GETTING WHAT SHE DESERVES! SHE DEH WITH A MUN THAT NOT HERS, AND I GLAD FOR HER, I WAS DOWN FOR TOO LONG.

And that’s the moral, fellas.. don’t let guilt eat you alive when a woman downgrade. Life always expose the truth.

Lucian women? Dangerous, boy… real dangerous.